{"id":14407,"date":"2010-12-02T22:24:39","date_gmt":"2010-12-02T21:24:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.vackerunderbar.se\/?p=14407"},"modified":"2010-12-02T22:24:39","modified_gmt":"2010-12-02T21:24:39","slug":"day-24-%e2%80%93-something-that-makes-you-cry","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/?p=14407","title":{"rendered":"Day 24 \u2013 Something that makes you cry"},"content":{"rendered":"<figure id=\"attachment_14408\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-14408\" style=\"width: 525px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.vackerunderbar.se\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/12\/anders2.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-large wp-image-14408\" title=\"anders2\" src=\"http:\/\/www.vackerunderbar.se\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/12\/anders2-525x349.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"525\" height=\"349\" \/><\/a><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-14408\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Ibland vill man bara skrika... men s\u00e5 gr\u00e5ter man ist\u00e4llet.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p>Den h\u00e4r \u00e4r givetvis lite k\u00e4nslig. Eller jobbig ska jag s\u00e4ga.<\/p>\n<p>Tidigare, n\u00e4r jag fortfarande tuggade antidepp, gr\u00e4t jag v\u00e4ldigt s\u00e4llan. D\u00e5 var det vid yttersta frustrationen som jag gr\u00e4t. N\u00e4r pappa dog \u00e5t jag fortfarande antidepp men klarade av att sl\u00e4ppa ut gr\u00e5ten d\u00e5.<\/p>\n<p>Sedan jag slutade med antidepp gr\u00e5ter jag \u00e5t det mesta. N\u00e4r jag pratar om pappa eller t\u00e4nker p\u00e5 honom (eller skriver om honom&#8230;) k\u00e4nner jag hur det tjocknar i halsen. N\u00e4r jag ser p\u00e5 tv, fiction eller verklighet, d\u00e4r ett barn f\u00f6rlorar sin f\u00f6r\u00e4lder tex eller n\u00e5gon vinner Biggest Loser gr\u00e5ter jag. N\u00e4r jag l\u00e4ser i tidningen om olyckor eller brottsfall blir det fuktigt i \u00f6gonen.<\/p>\n<p>Men det \u00e4r s\u00e4llan som jag faktiskt bryter ihop och gr\u00e5ter s\u00e5 det g\u00f6r ont i hela kroppen. Senast kan ha varit p\u00e5 min pappas gravs\u00e4ttning, n\u00e4r jag satt i duschen innan och <em>cried my heart out<\/em>. Men f\u00f6r mig \u00e4r det alltf\u00f6r sm\u00e4rtsamt att gr\u00e5ta. Det g\u00f6r fysiskt ont i hela kroppen och jag klarar inte av att sl\u00e4ppa ut f\u00f6r mycket f\u00f6r ofta. Men min pappas d\u00f6d \u00e4r det mest sm\u00e4rtsamma jag n\u00e5gonsin varit med om i hela mitt liv, f\u00f6r att klara av det m\u00e5ste jag gr\u00e5ta. Och sm\u00e4rtan m\u00e5ste jag f\u00e5 k\u00e4nna. Men jag kan inte g\u00f6ra det f\u00f6r ofta, det m\u00e5ste f\u00e5 vila.<\/p>\n<p>Men fuktiga \u00f6gon kan jag till\u00e5ta mig. Vare sig n\u00e5gon d\u00f6r eller vinner en t\u00e4vling.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Den h\u00e4r \u00e4r givetvis lite k\u00e4nslig. Eller jobbig ska jag s\u00e4ga. Tidigare, n\u00e4r jag fortfarande tuggade antidepp, gr\u00e4t jag v\u00e4ldigt s\u00e4llan. D\u00e5 var det vid &hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14407"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=14407"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14407\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":14410,"href":"https:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14407\/revisions\/14410"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=14407"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=14407"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=14407"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}