{"id":14478,"date":"2010-12-06T23:37:22","date_gmt":"2010-12-06T22:37:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.vackerunderbar.se\/?p=14478"},"modified":"2010-12-06T23:37:22","modified_gmt":"2010-12-06T22:37:22","slug":"day-28-%e2%80%93-something-that-you-miss","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/?p=14478","title":{"rendered":"Day 28 \u2013 Something that you miss"},"content":{"rendered":"<figure id=\"attachment_14479\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-14479\" style=\"width: 500px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.vackerunderbar.se\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/12\/julen09-3.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-full wp-image-14479\" title=\"julen09-3\" src=\"http:\/\/www.vackerunderbar.se\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/12\/julen09-3.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"500\" height=\"601\" \/><\/a><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-14479\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">F\u00f6rra julen samlade vi hela familjen, f\u00f6r sista g\u00e5ngen, f\u00f6r att fira jul. Alla var d\u00e4r, tom Wendy. <\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p style=\"text-align: left;\">Jag hade kunnat g\u00f6ra det enkelt f\u00f6r mig och besvara denna dags utmaning med ett enda ord.<\/p>\n<p>Pappa.<\/p>\n<p>Men ni k\u00e4nner ju mig, jag vill spilla mitt hj\u00e4rta p\u00e5 den h\u00e4r utmaningen. Pappa \u00e4r den jag saknar mest i hela v\u00e4rlden, svaret \u00e4r ju fortfarande enkelt. Vi kanske inte pratade med varann varje dag, vare sig n\u00e4r livet var normalt eller n\u00e4r han var sjuk. Men han \u00e4r ju en del av mig, han kommer alltid st\u00e5 f\u00f6r h\u00e4lften av mina gener. Och saknaden \u00e4r fortfarande lika stor, kanske st\u00f6rre nu n\u00e4r han varit borta s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge. S\u00e5 l\u00e4nge utan mer \u00e4n p\u00e5h\u00e4lsningar i mina dr\u00f6mmar.<\/p>\n<p>Jag vet inte hur den h\u00e4r julen kommer bli. Jag \u00e4r ledsen f\u00f6r min egen skull som inte f\u00e5r \u00f6nska min pappa god jul, mer \u00e4n i tanken. Men jag \u00e4r ocks\u00e5 orolig f\u00f6r Melanthies skull. Jag har fr\u00e5gat henne, bjudit in henne, m\u00e5nga g\u00e5nger just f\u00f6r att hon ska veta att hon g\u00e4rna f\u00e5r komma till oss p\u00e5 jul. Men hon vill vara sj\u00e4lv. Kanske pl\u00e5ga sig sj\u00e4lv i sin ensamhet, men s\u00e4kerligen mest f\u00f6r att f\u00e5 minnas. F\u00f6r hennes sm\u00e4rta \u00e4r st\u00e4ndigt n\u00e4rvarande, hon g\u00f6r allt f\u00f6r att fysiskt pl\u00e5ga sig f\u00f6r att slippa k\u00e4nna sin mentala sm\u00e4rta.<\/p>\n<p>F\u00f6r mig g\u00e5r livet vidare och en dag kanske jag inte k\u00e4nner sm\u00e4rta n\u00e4r jag t\u00e4nker p\u00e5 min pappa. Saknaden f\u00f6rsvinner nog aldrig, men jag kanske klarar av att t\u00e4nka p\u00e5 honom och faktiskt p\u00e5 riktigt gl\u00e4djas \u00e5t att han funnits, ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r att s\u00f6rja hans d\u00f6d. Men inte \u00e4n.<\/p>\n<p>Jag saknar inget, jag saknar pappa.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Jag hade kunnat g\u00f6ra det enkelt f\u00f6r mig och besvara denna dags utmaning med ett enda ord. Pappa. Men ni k\u00e4nner ju mig, jag vill &hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14478"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=14478"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14478\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":14481,"href":"http:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14478\/revisions\/14481"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=14478"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=14478"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/vackerunderbar.se\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=14478"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}